sometimes

sometimes i think what constitute one's daily life.

recently i just wanna take a good rest not only because getting sick but also due to a contradiction between the leisure and slowless which projected in my works and my indeed very busy daily life, both as an artist and staff in an academic(?) dept. If what i projected is at least a longing for a certain kind of living style, how can it be true as a statement in a political sense if it can't even be fulfilled in my OWN daily life.

I started to realise the way i look into the details of my daily life are more likely to be political rather than simply soothing one. besides, it justified / clarified my concern in my own daily life. making art have to make it sound. getting rid of 'art' is not a means to an end.